It’s my choice to be made whole, according to my interpretation of the question Jesus delivered to the man who stood outside of the troubled waters. In digesting this idea too many times and different ways to even keep up with in myself, I’m brought again to the truth of how powerless I am, outside of His will for me. I see the truth mingling with philosophies of the world, creating a barrier to true freedom in Christ.
Can I will myself to be healed? It’s a question that can easily be agreed with and supported by scripture. Faith is a decision that leads to healing and freedom. But if I am the point, then why did Paul recognize that he himself is no longer living, but it is now CHRIST who lives within him. If my pain is the focus and my deliverance is the goal, then I have to ask myself, who am I? Why am I so special? Why does everything that I do and seek end up posturing my importance within my own thoughts?
The Lord said, “Seek the Kingdom first and then all things will be added unto you.” In seeking myself – the wants and needs of me, I seem to error over and over again. Brought back to the same place, begging for freedom, healing and deliverance – wondering why this promise seems so hard to receive in the natural. Perhaps the natural is the problem that I wrestle to get rid of.
Yesterday I watched a video about the power that lives in us. The purpose of the video was to communicate that we have the power to receive whatever we desire by adopting a mindset. Biblical principles, yet something unsettling lingered in the message – perhaps the absence of Christ. As it is written, “Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that enters not by the door into the sheepfold, but climbs up some other way, the same is a thief and a robber.“ – John 10:1.
HE is the way! And when I woke up this morning, the first scripture I was presented with was this..
For, brethren, ye have been called unto liberty; only use not liberty for an occasion to the flesh, but by love serve one another. – Galatians 5:13
So what does it mean? Perhaps true freedom and liberty is found in the release of self – casting away of my desires and wants, for the will of my Father. Can all of me be removed, so that I can be filled up with all of Him? Can I remain in peace and comfort all the days of this life, based on my own experiences and personal gains – or will the brokenness of others be a constant reminder of what my heart truly desires? When the layers of me are peeled away and my eyes are opened to see truth, I see a bigger picture of who I am. I see the connection that places me deeply rooted with the lives of others – their wants, their needs, their sorrows and their cries.
Father today I ask for real liberty, YOUR liberty, not the manufactured will of my own attempts at perfect faith – but the true faith that is given by you, and that my request not be in vanity for my own gain. But Lord I pray that ALL the captives may be set free by the saving grace of you, our Father, by the blood of our Savior – the WORD and the REDEEMER who paid the ransom for our souls. Lord I pray that your Kingdom come and that your perfect will, rooted in your unfailing love for us be done on our Earth as it is in Heaven. Father I pray that I not be exalted above my brothers and sisters in Christ – but Lord that we, as one body are exalted together – healed, set free, redeemed, comforted and MADE WHOLE, lacking nothing and wanting nothing – but brought into the fullness of your riches and glory that you have prepared for us. Heavenly Father please impute to us the Faith and help us with our unbelief as we face this world seeking your loving hand and your protective shield. Lord I thank you for guiding us and keeping us in your hands – that no weapon formed against us can prevail and that not one will be lost.
In the powerful name of Yeshua Hamashiach, Jesus Christ of Nazareth